26th Dec., 1889.
After a long attempt, I think, I am now in a position to present myself before you. In a day or two I take myself to your feet at holy Kashi.
I have been putting up here for some days with a gentleman of Calcutta, but my mind is much longing for Varanasi. My idea is to remain there for some time, and to watch how Vishvanâtha and Annapurnâ deal it out to my lot. And my resolve is something like “either to lay down my life or realise my ideal”— so help me the Lord of Kashi.